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Darwin started at home, young.

The image above and the collection of Darwin's scribbles captured my interest to blog. Science is relatively a very interactive field of interest. This is where I find freedom is beyond comprehension.

Read more about Darwin here.

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Hurmmm...

phdcomics

It is summer now!

MJ impersonator

This is just too adorable to keep it for my own. IKBC snaps very good kitties pictures at their very best moments. This is just one of the many!

source : IKBC

So long...

I guess I never come to terms in accepting their demise..

nor anywhere near it...

I still tear at the thought of them..

This has been the first time after 10months have passed... that I look back at the albums of photos I took of you. Flashing memories that was once so fond to be re-winded again and again. Now, I can't afford to play those thoughts repeatedly...

MY heart is heavily soaked.

Rest in eternal peace my little ones...

Always in my mind,

deep in my heart,

genuinely apart of my soul.

Or getting old?

You know you are growing up..

when you pay no attention to those who ridicule you

when you felt nothing with those playing games behind you

when you no longer pity being victimized of jealousy and hatred

when you catch your breath after being hated, drowned and hurt

when you hurt not by those who is beyond forgiveness

when you forgive those who intentionally grieve you

when you grieve overnight and recover steadfast

when you can easily become light hearted to whatever had held you captive

when you hold no grudge anymore and move on

when you know how to live a life being yourself

and realize life is bigger than itself.

Urchin sings too?

This is a very interesting field of research.

I have been hearing a lot of clicking and fidgeting sounds in highly-urchin infested HK waters. Little do I know that they really do come from urchins!!!

I know that not only mammals, whales, fishes, crustaceans make sounds underwater but now urchins too???

Wonder what indications do they present?

I miss being a very curious marine biologist. It is boring working with rocks... Too safe.

Photo : The Age

The Oceans by DisneyNature

Strongly recommended.

or the link : http://youtu.be/uXLbQrK6cXw?hd=1

An afternoon at work with Mr Zhuang

Having some company that you really enjoy around you, especially at work, changes your day completely.

Mr Zhuang came to my office and joyfully leaped around and playfully nudge my shins every now and then. This young chihuahua cross has got endless energy until he drained himself and settled for some vibration-mode-off photography.

Nevertheless, the afternoon seems easier to work-by.

Goodnight Mr Zhuang..

Words ringing in my head

Hang in there.

That's the favourite word used by everyone when they tried to talked me out of what I had in mind. I held onto it up til now.And it works. Because I trust these people.

A journey, if I were to tell out aloud, makes eyes widen with disbelief. Expecting bombardment of questioning thoughts. Unsurprisingly, I never utter a single word about it. Not that I'm swollen with ego. there's nothing to be proud of being caught in this drama. But, I am not too keen to share about it as well. Having to go through this journey already drained more than half of me. I still need the other half for these remaining years..

Lately, it has been asphyxiating. NOthing seems to be hitting the right note. And I have been battered with fatigue and endless pressure...

I miss living my life. And now, I am saying as if I am forced to live a life that I have no liken to. Strange feeling.

But, I find no words to debate against it.

So, I need to keep holding on.

Daddy, I want to come home

I had wanted to spill it all out to my dad tonight. Want to tell him the truth. Want to have his blessings. Want him to understand how important it is to me. Want him to know what I have been through.

Determined, I called. Hoping that dad will answer and we will have a heart to heart talk. I love how dad squeal in delight whenever I surprised him by calling his office. Reminds me of how much I miss spending time with him at home. And how much our character resembles each other.

The ringing lasted forever.

At last, there were no answer.

Is this an omen?

I won't want to break my old man's heart...

After all, he is the most important man in my life.

Caught In between

I need the strength.

I need the answers.

I need a friend.

I felt lost and unfulfilled in this journey. I was very contented before.

But now...

I felt something is missing. I felt a part of me has been taken away.

Is this truly what I had wanted?

Or is this how I am awarded for stepping on the pedal?

The look

I remember that look. My fairytale reliving itself.

When I walked into the room.

The awe in your mouth..

The frozen moment..

The sparkle in your eyes... says it all.

You did it all, so effortlessly.

Such a natural.

And I will always remember the look.

A deserted campus

Easter's long holiday is finally here. Campus is literally empty for the time being. Long holidays in HK is really rare; unlike Msia. We were too slacking and unfortunately, still.

So.... What will I be doing?

Well, I have a few good books to keep me company. Plus, all the time in the world to do whatever I want. And lots of drops from the sky to keep me curled up in bed the whole day. Spacious gym and all the luxurious access to any equipments I want. No queue!!!

Hopefully.

Nevertheless, will be a nice weekend of a much needed rest...

The rare speech

These words will always ring in my ear.

"You have learned and achieved a lot;

especially considering where you have come from."

"I'm surprised and truly amazed at

how tolerant and enduring of a person you are."

Thanks boss.

Those are the kindest words I need at one of the bottom-est time of a head damaging journey.

Simple numbers

My page views as of til tonight

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Overwork kills

Spending too much time at work can be the ultimate reason we lose ourselves, body, mind and soul. Don't take it for granted that you are still young and having plenty to fight for.

What is the price in place for the gamble?

The following post is from People's Daily Online.

Pan Jie, 25, died on Sunday of acute cerebral meningitis, which is caused by a viral or bacterial infection. Symptoms include severe headache and fever.

"Based on her symptoms and her low white blood cell count, it's reasonable to conclude that overwork led to a weakened immune system, which makes her more vulnerable to infections," Wang said. "When an infection worsens over time, people can develop acute cerebral meningitis."

Pan seemed to be aware something was wrong. On March 31, Pan wrote on her microblog: "Whenever there's a chance to take a break, a fever comes. My body, I am at a loss whether I should praise you for being understanding or just the opposite."

"I can accept overtime. I can also accept out-of-town business trips. But on learning a young worker died from fatigue at kp (KPMG), I feel something has broken my bottom line to endure," she wrote.

To be honest, I am scared. I worked more than 12hours a day, 7days a week. And my boss don't give a damn. I should quit my job. But I can't.