Abdul Samad Said

Unggun Bersih by A Samad Said

Or getting old?

You know you are growing up..

when you pay no attention to those who ridicule you

when you felt nothing with those playing games behind you

when you no longer pity being victimized of jealousy and hatred

when you catch your breath after being hated, drowned and hurt

when you hurt not by those who is beyond forgiveness

when you forgive those who intentionally grieve you

when you grieve overnight and recover steadfast

when you can easily become light hearted to whatever had held you captive

when you hold no grudge anymore and move on

when you know how to live a life being yourself

and realize life is bigger than itself.

Nothing

When you can do nothing,

what can you do?

Zen Mondo

Rainbow and rain

If you want the rainbow, you should put up with the rain.

Dolly Parton.

Tweeting on Japan's catastrophe

This is my first experience reading updates from twitter. Rare for me, but I find it very amusing. Some meaningful tweets to share :

More click here.

Such an inspiration to the whole world.

It's a shame if you don't feel it. This is what we call spiritual strength.

Enlightening

Sometimes the most important thing in that whole day, is the rest we take in between two deep breaths.

Life, trial and error

I think, I'm a very happy person.

I deserve, for what I've done.

I have, indeed achieve a lot.

I did, try my best.

I could, not ask for more.

I am, contented and grateful.

I must, be the most loved person in life.

My life.

Twisted. Turned. Spurred. Spanned. Stirred. Rotated. Ridiculed. Crumbled. Cracked. Corrupted.

And still be it. So what?

I'm learning to enjoy it.

No longer fighting it, nor develop negativity towards it.

Embracing every short moment of my wonderful life.

Reflect, relax and return.

Loving love in return for love.

Aaahhh...

Life is, to get up again after every fall.

Just a few scratches...

I am no God

It's very difficult to be surrounded by friends who won't relief themselves off the negativity hook. Most of the time, you, yourself are trying so hard to make ends meet, to fight for your own life and trying to make the world a better place for everyone.

These friends can't stop being stuck in their sad, depressed and unhappy state. They fight, debate and argue - senseless, with you. People who tend to complicate their minds for the simplest matter and blame the world for what they have become. Those who thought they are blessed but cannot be grateful for who they are. And they question you when you answered, 'why', 'no', 'not', 'dont want' etc.

And these friends...

They caught you off guard

...when they say things that hurts.

They caught you further off guard

...when they have suicidal thoughts.

They crushed you

...when they blame it on life, family and religion.

They crushed you further

...when they don't think you were there for them.

No matter how much you tried to turn their life around, cheering them on, opening their life to a whole broader world, patting their backs, accompanying them all the way, stay still when the whole world shook for them. And yet, they crawled back to their comfort zone, and be a recluse against the world.

I tried. Sadly, I failed to help you.

Sigh...

Friend, I am no God. I think, you need one.

Something I forgot to tell Serena

I was reading on isotopes until my small eyes weakened, nodding away. So, I scavenged through my small and yet FULLY OCCUPIED table for a bookmark. Then, I came across this...

I was trying to recall who spelled my name wrongly on this lovely 'Green' card. And suddenly, my mind came clear. And I got freshened up instantaneously. So, I started writing... a long conversation.

Last summer, I wanted to know more about one of the climate event happening in campus. I approached this sweet petite girl. Serena is one of the lucky Hong Kong student who got selected for those highly publicised Antarctica journey for university students. A westerner was right behind me when we both stepped in the booth.

I : Hi! This looks interesting to me.
Serena : Hi! Take a look at our campaigns. And the information on the posters.
W : [smile]
Serena : Hey! Do you know what's Climate Change? Have you heard about it? Let me show you here.
W : ok. [looking away fidgeting under the hot sun]
I : [a bit shocked but still manage to smile]

So, Serena was elaborating big time about her adventure in Antarctica with her new friend W. I stood next to her fancy Mac and listened as she explained hyperactively to W all about the Climate and the disastrous changes taking places. Then...

Serena : You can register here if you wish to know more about us.
W : Ok.
Serena : Thank you, W!!!
I : Erm, hey Serena, what's that registration about? Can you tell me more?
Serena : Ok. Just register your details here. [smile, i think it was]
I : Can you show me the English language?
Serena : [puzzled] Ok...
I : Unfortunately, I don't know how to read Chinese [smiled and continued with registering].

W was leaving. So, Serena scribbled something on a card.

Serena : Hi W, this is for you!
W : Thanks.
Serena : What's your name?
I : Teng T-E-N-G. It goes double.

Serena wrote my name on it. First looking at it, and then looked away while writing the one behind. That explains the picture above.

Serena walked away and 'sent' W off.
I went over and told her you got my name wrong. She just asked my name again and then, took her pencil and 'erased'.

I : Thanks [smiled]
Serena : Welcome!

Serena,
THANK YOU for giving me the card.
I am grateful.

You don't have to remember my name,
but I think, you have to remember yours...

Present, future and past

To mark the start of our journey into this world,
We are born into the present.

As we grow up and older,
We look forward to the future.

When we leave this world,
We left behind a past.

Life, in your own hands

Life, is how you determined it to be.

Not somebody else.

We do have a choice!

The strength from within

Because I am born a FIGHTER.

And I am STRONGER than whom I thought I was.

The PACIFIST still exists, lingering as a confusion.

But the will in me, standing TOUGH throughout all odds.

I SURVIVED, and waded through.

I will still GRACE,

I am still the FIGHTER.

The time of our lives

pravs world

Procastination