Examination Results

The varsity life.

We laughed, we cried, we shared, we joked, we played, we got summon tickets for parking at our conveniences [but not others], we were ushered out of the library for not obeying the dress code, we intend to become cool lads going around the campus without our helmet on [and another summon issued], we broke numerous lab glass wares and causes laboratory machines costing over few thousand ringgit to hundreds of thousands ringgit broke down because of our negligence [then, walk out a freeman having the university to have it fix for us!!! hooray!].

We made friends and lost them, we got differentiated by the colours we were born into, we compete, we tried to bring every great competitor down, we back stabbed, we rumoured, we gossiped, we got hurt, we humiliate and have been humiliated in return, we created a scene, we got back at our feet and pretended the whole scene did not just happened.

Universally, we ALL have a whale of a time in university - be it diploma, degree, MSc or even PhD. We are all the same. We grew up in the same environment as students [Whoops, sorry, lecturers are not counted in].

Maybe just a lil' different in some peculiar way - where yours ought to be brighter and casual than mine. Or, mine could be complicated and yet colourful than yours! Vice versa, we still come back to the square.

This time, let's focus on university based examinations.

We worked hard, we strived towards excellency [I don't know bout you, but I had only one chance to do all of my good here and I did], we struggled, we burnt midnight oil, we sacrifices our holidays, we slept less than 4 hours a day, we skipped classes, we rushed through everything, we tried and failed and tried again, we greedily take our chances at every stepping stone and in our final year, we will succeed.

Don't believe it? Then, try to.

If you are not trying that hard to excel or simply be the best out of the rest [mind you! I cast out the phrase, 'be the best among the best' already], perhaps you have not realize the opportunity to create hopes for you are here. Life in university is just not about lectures, examination and results. Therefore, we are exposed to assignments, quizzes, projects, presentations, seminars, workshops etc. It is a forecast of our future.

If you just want to graduate sober and grab the scroll ASAP [without any achievements in life], then you might just leave my post. Sorry to say, my content might not be up to your suitability.

Being in uni, the examination results are minority aspects of your studious cycle. Why worry about the carry marks and the numerical figures if you believed that you had perform your best?! Resume to satisfaction instead of comparison to other competitors for the benefit of your own. Why choose to be upset of something you had worked hard for? [unless you did not]. The outcome of not only paperwork but also other core activities are vital surviving kit for future plans. We mature as we gone through the harsh years in uni and we learnt to handle situations as part of learning.

No, I'm not saying that you should go all out to have fun and neglect your studies. Bear in mind, the principles of yin & yang should be maintained in equilibrium state to balance up our living soul. Neither should be given lesser attention because of the equally important properties each contains.

Step up!

Savour the benefit of this higher institution of learning which endlessly prepares a stepping stone for all of us!

The management of your life is a surviving criteria throughout this ongoing adulthood journey that advanced simply from basic university living. Start implementing 'thinking out of the box' analogy that was practically embedded as an impact from varsity life into yours before you grow any older and lost your practical senses! Logically, these analytical skills are what is going to feed us for our lives.

Can't catch up? - Well, you should. If you don't want to lose out.

Work for
what you really need
instead of
what others think you might need.

Christmas Eve with Ginger Man

Nothing can be more faithful than the old ones.

I vividly recall last-minute shopping, decorating Christmas trees, hanging colourful socks around the house, preparing mountains of presents, exchanging gifts, singing Christmas carols, cutting up the turkey, the marvellous Christmas dinner, saying grace and a great time spent with my dearest god-family.

I had spent the past 15 years enjoying every Christmas season with the Christian family that helped to bring me up as a good child. I love the season because of them. And I get to know the meaning of the joyous season, not because of what they can teach me. But because of what they had showered me. But, it has been lacking at recent years... Distances drifted both families apart.

Yesterday, I had my Ginger Man to countdown! Well, there's always a first time right?!

Have a jolly moment with your love ones!!!

*MERRY CHRISTMAS*

Winter Solstice Festival

Yummy Yummy!!!


Homemade 'Tong Yuen'

Home sick home........

To pick up the challenge or not?

Here's an interesting agenda.


I came across Pelf's most recent published post on

Group-writing project: 31 ways to save the ocean

that she personally organised for The Giving Hands, an online charity and conservation based organisation which she had been working on. The idea intrigues me very much at this kind of effort to spread awareness on the world wide web.


Read on the post on Pelf's blog and you'll get the picture of what she had reckon for this group-writing project. She's good in giving the details and directing readers where she predicted that they would be lost somewhere in the middle of the whole idea.


With this, I dearly hope some good correspondent would really munch in the effort to chip in to scribble a few meaningful words.


It is, by the way,

About Giving...

Rainy days

Rainy days

It's been raining for days... weeks... for ever since I have recalled. The weather had not been merciful to me these few hectic days. Soaking me wet thoroughly in the pouring rain wherever I went. So drenched that it drained out the heat within me. It is indeed tormenting having to wade the pouring rain and freezing wind at 60km/hr.

It's monsoon season here. Unpredictable, cruel, freezing cold, anticipated and forever type of weather. It sure feels nice to snuggle underneath the warm sheet of blanket - all wrapped up in the warmth of December.

- poof !!! -

Gone when work is on track.... no sleeping under covers 'til noon. It is about discipline. Disciplined enough to get things done and maintaining it's progress. Yes, we need to wake up and make a move to begin the day despite the comfort staying in wonderland. No matter how cruel the real life drama would be for us every single day.

Many reluctantly understand the importance of early rise for the benefit of one own; especially when it's those rainy days. Unable to let go of the sweetest of dreams. Dragging themselves out of bed, cursing under their stinking breath for the need to answer morning calls. Or shook their head free from the budging alarm clock by the bedside. How you wish the battery had died off the day before!!!


That's a part of growing up since childhood. And, when we are ripe with age, we would glance back and go,

"Oh, those were the days...."

We would speak of experience then again. The ethical manner in the conduct of our personal lives.



Yeah... I just gave up curling under my faithful sheets for the sake of my project... Mighty me!!!

Embracing the cold rain... just shivers my soul.

Close to my heart

Because you made it happen. Because you chose to colour my life.

I made friends easily when I go places. But, the problem is, I don't get involve with their lives that much. The relationship tend to go complicated when the journey is half way through.

Well, most of the time, I recklessly let my personal agendas go haywire. In the end, the condition not only worsen but became uncontrollable. It is only when I come to my sensible senses that things can be patched up again.

I'm the dominative type. Not wild, not fire. Just persistent and stubborn enough to break any wall. I drive people nuts with my crazy cum end-of-the-world request, dreams and ideas.

I even shot my best pals - point blank!!!


This hyper-sensitivity in me had driven people nuts. Mood swings became a routine thing for me had I not realize it earlier and try to improvise myself. So unpredictable and always a surprise which makes my friends, a distant away from me. I realized that they were hurt from the effect and took a whole lot of time to recover.

The fact that I'm emotional doesn't ring any alarm in any of my friends. When I felt that the friendship has developed a great deal of trust and fondness, I chose to backed out. Keeping them closer to me makes me feel weak and vulnerable to threats. Vice versa - I guess, I'm the biggest threat available to them.

I had rather kept a distance - not because I don't appreciate the kindness in the blessed interaction, but because I don't wish to torment their lives because of who I am. I always felt they deserve to have better - my friends do deserve more.

Because,

they are closer to me than they had thought....

Behind the scene : Duyong Monsoon Cup

In Peninsular Malaysia, Terengganu is located at East Coast exposing the state to wonders of the South China Sea. At this time of the year for every year without fail, there would be the monsoon season in which it is known locally as 'musim tengkujuh'.

It is also a month where we can see people preparing lavishly for the upcoming Monsoon Cup which was held from 28th-2nd Dec. I happened to passed by several government projects which is abandoned (like usual) or, showing slow progress a few weeks back.


Surprisingly, a week ago, while on my way to Kuala Terengganu town, I saw the super-fast amendment of the abandoned and incomplete projects. The row of mosques by the river banks which are only meant for display are set-up nicely; with the crystal mosque brightly lit up at night.


Roads leading to Duyong Island was downed with colourful lights and the roads are super clean. Just a few weeks back, I recall seeing decorations on the streets lamp post dangling down....


Banners and propagandas of the opposition party was hauled off. No doubt, they are fast replaced by the masked political figures vowing to bring more development to the state. Exaggerating their actions by dictating their MEGA projects - TWO huge stadiums built on a piece of once-upon-a-time forest land; indoor and outdoor. Yes, of course. It is rushing for SUKMA 2008 hosted by Terengganu. I wonder, after the major games, do they need the high-maintenance facilities since they have chosen to tore down the state gymnasium? Don't even need to mention about the swimming pool. Let's predict what's going to take place soon.... Ahhhh.... Tax increase!!!

We can almost see the dominating government lousy money eating plans just like everywhere else!!!

Not to forget, there are the airport expansion projects, highway linkage, 62 mosques around T'ganu, wave breaker in the estuaries, the forever upgrading construction project at the police quarters, allowing the intrusion of investors, digging up the street banks again and again, cutting up more trees to give way to skyscrapers......

What are they trying to show to the visiting foreigners?? An artificial portrait of Terengganu??

Clearing lands... deforestation... tearing sky-high trees... flooding and river run-off because of the effects of depleting soil-detaining roots... pollution in Terengganu waters... sand mining in Setiu... habitat destruction of animals in wild... egg poaches... extinction of marine mammals (Leatherback Turtles in Rantau Abang)... extensive exploitation of islands off the waters for tourism... development taking place without considering long term damage... consuming Earth's resources greedily... contributing hugely towards greenhouse gases production...

Hasn't the damage done enough harm to this state? What more to rob of its natural realms?

Well, they have even use Visit Terengganu 2008 to fool the citizens of the advancement they proclaimed. Yes, foreigners coming in = MONEY, but only for a short term if it goes unplanned like many other government big-headed thinking. Nothing under the supervision of the government goes as plan or are even sustainable under long period of time. Monsoon Cup is just to offset any ill-minded perceptions towards the influential government. As if to advertise an idiosyncratic shallow-minded community dominating the country. Just so it seems in my blog. It is masked to illustrate the impact of money-eating agenda.

There's one chinese saying;

"If you don't have such a big head;
Don't make a fool of yourself by wearing a big hat"

State of Terengganu

Realize your value and your rights before it is exorcised for bad right in front of you. Malaysians have yet to achieve the lifestyle of what other developed countries have achieved.

We are still developing as a poor-resource-sustainable nation.

Gadgets in motion

We tend to dislike them,




but, without them... It seems difficult.

Are we being too dependant on them ?
Do we know how to live only with the essentials ??

Doodle-d

My Doodle

I was chatting with my friends in IM Yahoo Messenger when I decided to download the Doodle Background. Interesting outcome!!!

The image above was captured by an impressed housemate of mine. It did not look anything casually scribbled - not just by anyone at least!!! It did not take me long to come up with that 'mouse-drawing' after all. No theme - but a casual scribble. It is not like any other doodle; partly because it is internet-based. Give it a try if you are interested.

Who knows? You might discover a new talent :)

A Difficult Helping Hand

It feels like forever to gain other's trust.... while it takes me just a sec to trust them.

Where has humanity gone?

Why is it so difficult to help people in need? [In this case, I regard myself a minor among the majors]. There are those in foster homes, the orphanage, those unfortunately slapped with disability - physically & mentally, mute, deaf, blind, those who spent their golden days in ol' folks, those who suffered incurable disease, poor people strike with poverty, citizens with hopes & dreams shattered in disasters,

and many many more.....

Yes, little of all man would be so kind - and it would create suspicion then! This is the proof of the century - needless to say, the shallow humanity resides. Lesser people find it comfortable to be able to help. They tend to held on tight to their negativity in having faith towards one another. Some, who never experienced the sufferings that other endured; stick on to their comfort zone. [These are those spoilt-brand-pursuing cum rich-show-offs brats around / snobbish-sun-hating-pathetic GUCCI sheS].

Why is there so many fear around?

The walls are built higher in neighbourhood;
Alarm system set to buzz every police station;
Ladies armed with pepper spray in handbags;
Locking cars once we hopped on;
Multiple door locks;
Agreements signed in black & whites;
Showing receipts before making claims

and bla bla bla...


You might say I'm being cynical in these by making remarks of every sophisticated precaution steps taken by people to ensure their safety. When I had needed help, merely a simple guide, they would chose to turn their backs on me.

Worst, it's the 'I Wanna Save My Own Ass' attitude.

I Have Nothing To Say

On blogging.

Stop the melting

http://www.warmingsign.org/

What do we know about the phrase, 'global warming' itself? Global warming is no more prodigy in man's history. It has long made its mark on Earth ever since the eras before the arrival of Christ.


The horrendous effect is well demonstrated again at this moment of our time-a topic discussed and debated by people of all region. The global warming trend is highlighted prominently in the icy poles as well as the tropical areas.


Being a marine biologist undergrad, I'll comment on the aspects leaning towards my field. Take the coral reef for example, they are slowly giving away to the effects of global warming.

Healthy Staghorn corals

Bleaching staghorn corals

Many have not realized the damage that is taking place in the beautiful waters around the world. Partly because they do not understand the complexity in coral physiology and mainly, because they just could not see the difference between the living and the dying in an environment that they are not accustomed with.


Well, the excuse I have reasoned out?? Hmmm, I'd rather put it this way - not everybody goes underwater every day?!! [Soothes ears better]

Had we forgotten just how beautiful they once were?

Let us not drill further in the subject that requires more than just simple understanding. Of course, I'll find time to dig deeper into corals. It has always been my love.

This petition is one of the many from websites established by people around the globe in an effort to conserve the Earth. There's a candle designed to melt away when the numbers of people signing is decreasing which I personally think is a really creative motive. I give credits to the joint initiator (Philippines) ; Junior Chamber International Makati and KLIMA climate change center for their utmost concern in environmental issues.


However, I wish this is not merely efforts to gain popularity in getting people checking out their websites. Not just to beat the headlines!! Hope not since the major breakthrough is still the "Inconvenient Truth".


Out of curiosity, I've checked out the links-they are up to reversing the effects of global warming. To add on, they had establish quite a fair amount of links and interesting information at our fingertips on how to reduce our impact. I bet, none or little would care to browse on them 'coz they are too informative. It's good information and it would take quite some time to go through them.

As for me, I flipped through the headlines. But, my effort DOES NOT just stop here.

I've got a project to run -
I have corals to save!!!
(",)

It's A Girl Thing

http://www.girlsday.com.my/

Like yoga? Make-up? Hair-do? A total make-over? Go girl!!!

It's gonna be a wild thing. In fact, my guess would be - a place crowded with nasty group of ladies. People crowding around - pushing and yanking. The pasar ladies.


With a classy venue, I might consider to change my perception. It might not be that bad since it would be held at KLCC. Now, we can expect people from higher classes in Klang Valley area to step in this convention centre [no offense]. Women who would really make a bargain out of it. Young lass capturing the most of the experiences they need in adulthood from the event. There would also be those wise buyers who are determined enough to keep their hands stuck in the pockets. I doubt the presence of any man who would be stooges standing at one corner [what an exaggerating metaphor!].


It doesn't seem to be the sort of place that a guy belongs to.


This 3-day affair will be featuring agenda on health, beauty, lifestyle and of course, FASHION [i'm quite keen on dressing up]. You'll be likely to see fashion icons and local celebrities making their appearance in public. They will also be organising workshops and fashion shows. Whoa!! Talking 'bout organisers... aplenty!! But surprisingly, none of the sanitary napkin company took part (like usual)!!


*How I wish the sponsors contribute their part in charity and environment rather than encouraging a spendthrift society...*

So, to all beautiful ladies out there; spend wisely.

Well, it's gonna be an eye-opener for me.

Cina 'Chibai'!!

[5.08pm]

I was standing at the gate of my house, staring at the waist-length meadow field in front of my house. The view was soothing and the weather is cool and crisp.


All of a sudden;

Hoi! Cina Chibai!!

These tormenting remarks were heard from a group of five malay teens of barely 16 years old, all attention was focused on me-still standing at the back of my gate. The useless rascals chose to gather at the back of somebody's house. Making noise and throwing rubbish everywhere dirtying the compound. Disturbing the peaceful environment in the evening.

Is that what the famous Islamic teachings here taught their offspring??

As I'm writing here, they are still making loud noises adding sarcasm to their attitude. My rented house is, about 20 metres away from them. I've been renting this house for 2 years and we, students are not permanent residents here. We don't rare dogs here and we kept ourselves low-keyed. As far as I can recall, no similar incidence had ever taken place before.

No, they did not stir up the fire in me. They just make me sick to my stomach.

I was innocently harassed verbally by a bunch of ill-mannered teens-basically malays who emphasize criticism towards chinese. This is the first time I had experienced it inside my house compound. [Let's not start counting the past].

Sadly, I did not manage to capture the most intriguing part of their idiotic actions.

I sit here, at my desk, wondering what have I done wrong instead. I'm dressed from bottom to top-T-shirts and shorts. Being inside my home, they couldn't even see what I had on myself bottom-down.

So, what is their problem?

It is either their parents lack some serious parenting skills or they have no guardians at all. But, why the emphasis on chinese and the usage of chinese vulgar language on me? I don't think the pressure of the upcoming elections are on these kiddo, but, perhaps on their guardians. Do they have any idea what shit just passed through their filthy mouths??


It is actually a serious offence. These kiddos don't know what kind of trouble they are inviting. If these kind of attitude to be persist, the status of a peaceful multi-racial society would be interrupted. I held no grudge towards people of other races-my group of friends are malay-dominated and they come from various states. But, they are nothing like this. Plus, we live in harmony with each other. But, a crime like this challenges my mind and interrupted my thoughts.


The permanent citizens live very sedentary lifestyle here and kept very low profile. They learnt to establish good connections with the dominant race here and in some cases, vice versa. But, their children could only been seen in chinese schools in town.

Weird huh? There seems to be a safety barrier in terms of relations.

In Terengganu, the opposition lost in the previous election. Ever since the new government took charge, things over here drastically changed. Banners put up to intimidate the government of large sum projects while the government fight back with bigger advertisement boards telling the people of their victorious cum development-based projects [why 62 mosque suddenly?? necessary??].


There has not been much of development here aside from the increase of prices and more eye sore upgrading projects. Of course, the opposition would take the opportunity to slap the current dominating party for their money-eating habits. Being exceptionally traditional and narrow-minded, they blame the new development brought along cultural shock into the society. more scantily dressed ladies and more khalwat cases by the beach!

Nonsense!!
What to say about Kelantan then?? It is still under the opposition.

When your religion breakdown together with your people;
pointing fingers at others would not help solving weak beliefs.

The people here, must know what they want. There are many tactics practised by the current government in order to win, no matter how ugly it could be. Dragging your citizens into fire are risking peace and understanding towards a colourful society.

The citizens must only open their eyes and speak out for their own.

Cut My Queue

It was a fine night to dine at the new McD in Kuala Terengganu.


The queue was long and loaded with people-all waiting patiently for their turn to place orders. I decided to split with my friends who continue standing in rows while I went to fetch my sundae cone at the dessert corner. Everybody was in the queue, faithfully obeying the sequence of orders.


After 15 minutes, it is my turn to order. I was about to open my mouth when I was rudely intercepted. Before I got the chance to request for my ice cream, this teen on my right slap the attendant with his order!!! The attendant obediently grant his orders and let him had his way by cutting the queue ahead of 11 person. She smile and asked me to wait for my turn instead!!!!

Aarrgghhhh!!!

The kiddo did not even bother to look at anyone of us who was obviously staring at this rude kid. Instead, this outrageous boy flashed his branded wallet to pay for his sundae. With much arrogance and ego, he poised his limited edition jersey in those hip-hop manner [what an eye sore!!] while awaiting the arrival of his ice cream.

Pathetic!

After getting his bargain, the kid went over to his friends and slapped high five. So, you know what I mean?? His gang of friends even gave him a round of applause for his ingenious act.

How silly and irritating at the same time!

Do they even bother how people would condemn their parents in parenting skills? I wouldn't have mind if he accidentally offended us in the queue. But, the fact that he did it on purpose really make me sick.

Kids nowadays..... Shame on you!!!

No Dogs In 'MY' Neighbourhood!!!

Kat rare a small pup at her rented house in Gong Badak, Kuala Terengganu. The obedient dog sits humbly inside the house compound beyond the gate.

She's chinese.

One day, a man suddenly came bombarding into her house. Grabbed the dog mercilessly, tied a rope to its neck and dragged it out of the house. The poor dog was pulled out to the street and dragged along the tar road. The man repeatedly haul and yank the stumbling dog hard. With rage and persistence, to prove to the dog owner his intention.

He's malay.

"No Dogs In 'MY' Neighbourhood!!!"

The man practically abused the dog and later came barking at the Kat doorsteps. He warned her to dispose of the dog or he shall do it himself. Adding more fire to his heated actions, he horrified my friend by threatening to hit the dog each and every single time he ever come across the pup.

Does that sound reasonable to you? What on Earth is he trying to do?? What is there to prove??

To him, dogs are filthy animals and the pup should not linger around to dirty his neighbourhood. That also goes to malays of his kind.



Well, from my understanding in Islamic beliefs right from Rasullulah;

"Dog's saliva are not hygienic and thus, people who embraces Islam should not be in contact with their SALIVA but, may look and even touch them. Those who accidentally touches their saliva should bathe in sacred mud water for 7 times along with recitation of prayers"

Yes, Terengganu is the largest state [error - 2nd largest after Pahang] in Peninsular Malaysia. So big, that they are often overwhelmed by unrightful practises of the Islamic teachings. People living in remote parts even demonstrate better religious ethics than most of those barbarians in the city! The fact that the diverted Islamic teachings have grounded their believers of many things had lead to many unspeakable wrongdoings and harsh actions towards members of the public-preferably, people of different skin. The man did not only abuse the dog, but he abuse the teachings of Islam and other citizen's right in M'sia.

Why the hatred towards people of different colours?

Where's the law when we needed it most?

What happen to the other eyes who witness the abuse??

No discussion had taken place at that time of anger. Nor a general warning was ensued. This man had taken actions of his own narrow-minded law. Abusive, vulgar and not the kind of tolerable behaviour. By right, he should be taken to the rightful authorities. But, my friend was too terrified at the time of the incident and taken aback with what the man might do to her.

Is there such a law that dogs are not allowed in malay-dominated area where there are also chinese, ethincs and indians?? This is the first time I've ever heard of it. Buddhist do not eat beef because of their sacred status and also in their beliefs. But, they don't just pulled and drag the cows across the street! Certainly this is an outrageous act in condemning certain values of the public. What is wrong in trying to live within a multi-racial community with broad-minded thinking and righteous attitude?

To disgust us more, this is not the single event where people of indifferent colours suffer misconduct in M'sia.

I'm reporting, only one in a plenty.

The dog, survived... sent elsewhere where no abuse would take place....

Re-Do [A confession just to offset my upset mind]

There are certain things in life which we cannot reverse back in time.

My error. My fault. My mistake. My........

Yes, me being absent-minded. Forgetful [not quite a good excuse actually....]. Ignorant. Blinded. Missed. Unseen. Not paying attention. Worst of all, it's right in front of my face!!!


Aarrggghhhhhh!!!!


What a stupid mistake!!! A chance proven to be an ideal idiosyncratic!
[And still, I refuse to tell the tale of my misfortune to public audience here :p. And NO, nothing can MAKE me do it!!!].


All I need is.....

1. Just a simple reminder;
2. Focused and undivided attention;
3. Healthy and calm mind working in accordance manner.

After finishing the previous last lap, now, I'm working back on track. Trekking the same path that I took in the progress of my final year project. I assume every final year undergraduates would somehow suffer fate similar to mine [at least some of my course-mates are]. It is a compulsory criteria for students in my field to graduate upon completing this "lagging and yet stress-demanding-related" course.


To be more linear so that the phrase would be more apprehensive to our ears, I would say,

"This requirement is a thorough challenge-intriguing comprehensive tool obliged by higher education by means of constant encouragement in which the ongoing research protocols encourage the reality going-off-track modernised generation of the new era towards knowledge cum information seeking while polishing their keen interest together with individual peculiar ideas and skills embedded within oneself to en route the success of their proposed progress towards achieving the set of determined criteria"


Long huh??


Well, I AM writing on behalf of many un-uttered [what a phrase??] inner voices.


Some over-reacted and compel to oblige to many unfavourable circumstances.
Some straight-forwardly pointed out to these "graduating needs" in distress for not being able to meet up the criteria.
Some just blind-folded themselves and let the donkey lead the way [remember how we hit the donkey just to get the treats?? Silly.].
Some, whole-heartedly appreciate what the learned taught us while leading us the way.

Instead of barking at each step-down while going through; try endorse yourself in a way that brightens up your day [believe me, I repeatedly told this to my-stubborn-self every single minute]. Ask yourself this, "Can you actually reverse the time?"

In the end, I am back to "The Square" too. But, I'm glad that I was given a second chance.

TOOLS FOR THE GUILTY SOUL


Stop whining!

Endure all that comes along the way

Brave the obstacles

Embrace the shortcomings

Practical in mind

Build positive attitude

Enjoy the process

Sit back & relax

wOw, that wasn't so bad after all!!

I had to conduct my experiment once again, right from the start.
So, what?

Elixir of Love

A beautiful scene from the Elixir of Love
[2004]

I almost like every movie that Miriam Yeung starred in - Undercover Love, Sound of Colours, Hooked on You, Dry Wood Fierce Fire and My Lucky Star. I might missed some, but who cares?

Miriam Yeung

I enjoy fantasizing the girl she always portray. Simple, happy-go-lucky, fun, easy, carefree, idiotic but has a charming side. Often, she has a adorable persona that keeps me glued on to my couch. Though she might laugh her head off at very simple things and act her way out with her own cheerful charm, she's a sober too. She can cry real quick. In emotional flicks, her acting skills can make you sob with her too! [paiseh, maybe just me...].


To elaborate more, her movies are actually my comforter in those dreadful days... Yes, I can keep watching the same DVD again and again just to laugh and feel better. Even chocolate doesn't de-stress me that much! Geng leh!!! She don't hide her personality even on tv(s)/movie screen (s) - so, why must we?? She's an absolute natural actress with a way on her own.


My way of stress relieving. Just to stay happy and keep those hurtful things out of sight.


It works!!!


Wanna give it a try???

p/s : NO, I don't join any fan's club. And No, I don't keep her pix underneath my pillow.

It is okay

To friends of UMT...

We have prayers deep in our hearts.

-teng-

A dedication

Ro,

Life's challenge is on its constant rotation.
Be strong & pull it through.

-teng-

Menstrual cycle

This is the basic component taking place inside of women's body in 28 days.
And, guys still think that it's just a few days time!
www.maybebaby.com.au/_fertility_timing.php

The basic thing that makes any normal woman special.

Not lengthy fully-treated hair, not long and curvy eye lashes, not plenty of make-ups, not sexy delicious curves, not hairless features, not sleek satin white milky skin, not fake breasts, not deep cleavage, and certainly not just a beautiful face.

Consider this,

A chance to give birth to a child.

Aren’t we, women are born to bear the seeds of love? Most of you would not agree to what I’m saying here. Particularly, those trapped in modernisation. You would say that women are not destined to be servants of man’s desire. That, we are not ‘convicted’ to bear their child for 9 months.

A diagram just to refresh your mind of what you've learnt in high school.

Learn more about yourself!

www.uspharmacist.com/.../3165/default.htm

Ladies, please be proud that you have this special advantage where none male (by record) possess. It is really special. Feel blessed that you have God given ability to be feminine. Don’t sit there and moan when you are aching from menstrual discharge. Why not find something enjoyable to do and be pleased that you don’t have complications when some other women have?

And then, you’ll start questioning, why men would not get swollen belly for more than half a year and go into labour? Suffer the most agonising pain in an entire women’s life? Even bet their lives to give life to the most precious thing that had been living within them for the past 9 months? [YES people, pregnant mother do face life and death situation while giving birth. One of my cousins passed away while giving life to her daughter…sad.].

[Guys would surely keep quiet by now].

Well people, I’m not here to scare you. I just want to let you guys know, how important it is to have a good healthy body. Eat well, exercise, keep yourself fit and strong, rest well, do check-ups regularly, maintain good mental health and stay happy. You might consider that you are still young, and anything you do now would not have any effect towards later life. You are SO wrong. Your menstrual cycle tells a lot about your body – whether you are healthy, are you having enough of sleep, eating balance meals, indicative of the medicines/supplements you are taking and etc. Learn more about your body – it is your choice to understand what your body needs and what your body rejects. Don’t depend on others, you are the key to your own life.

Start grading yourself today!

Ladies, consider this too,

A chance to drama keeling when we are having PMS!


Guys, oh please! Don’t give us that pathetic look. Menstrual pain is nothing nice to deal with. Imagine having your lil’ bro having cramps not because of excitement but of pain! Some idiotic guys just can never understand. They would make jokes bout ladies having PMS and laugh out their lungs. [On behalf of the girls - @#$%&*]. No, we don’t like it.

Most of us in the hectic world today suffer a lot of period pain. Why? Stress and pressure make up to most of it. Furthermore, junks and improper diet, skipping meals and lack of nutrients [sounds familiar huh??!!]. And then, we claim that time is never enough.

Well, excuses!

The thing is, we are working too hard. So hard on ourselves, that we neglect this important ‘SELF’ concept. Ladies, we ought to take good care of ourselves because this part of our inner health is really not as simple as you think.

Gain time for yourself. To do whatever you need to do to protect your health.

Maintain an active lifestyle. How?

• Chart your menstrual cycle!!!

• A brisk walk in the morning.

• Make salad and juices.

• Tune your stressors to cooking instead! [Hey, even guys do that, ok! MK is just the perfect ideal guy for this example].

• Groove in some of your fav oldies / Simply jam in new R & B songs. [Whatever you prefer].

• Aromatheraphy would be something new!

• Warm shower and massage [Don’t pay, do it yourself!].

• Adopt a pet from SPCA. [Don’t if you don’t have time or space for them].

• Go shopping! [Pasar malam is a good idea too].

• Spend some time with your loved ones – family, friends.

• Organise a party (Slumber party? Gathering? Just for fun?)

• Take pictures – environment, scenes, people, yourself…

• Read up [WWW is so accessible now, don’t be lazy, ok!]. Some prefer hanging on to a book.

• Pick up a hobby to do whenever you are bored.

• Write – diary, blog, letters…

• Set aside work and personal agenda.

• Charity is a MUST!

• Go on an exercise regime – make up a routine.

• Hanging out with ji muis!!!

Game to know more?

Here's a few URL to browse through. You can download a chart to record your monthly cycle. Or learn more about women's health in any of these. I'm sure, you can find better stuff than me.

http://www.mymonthlycycles.com/mmcsitemap.html

http://www.womenshealthlondon.org.uk/leaflets/cycle/cyclechart.html

http://www.menstruation.com.au/periodpages/chartingcycles.html

Of course, there should be more than all these. This is just some simple guidelines on living a good life. Just remember that every woman is beautiful in their own ways.

To me, every women is beautiful – it is just a matter of being in or out.