I wonder if what I said in my conversation with my sister would be held against me?
I wonder....
ME:
i found a new meaning to my phd
i dont have to complete it
because i already knew what i can achieved
SHE:
hahahaha... yes
ME:
and i dont want to achieve it for someone else
SHE:
it's all yours...
ME:
i dont want o help nathalie anymore
i cannot save the world
SHE:
no one can take it from you even if you want to give it away...
ME:
i cannot establish a southeast asia zone
SHE:
you alone cannot...
ME:
i cannot be the best in southeast asia
not because i am not
but because i dont need to prove so hard to be one
i dont want to care what she thinks of my work anymore
not because it doesnt matter
but it matters so much to me, than it matters meaningless to her
i am reluctant to help her solve her puzzle
SHE:
totally agree with you...
ME:
she needs a proper way to do so
i tried to help her,
but without her selfless act, i am a soldier fighting my own war
if she has a personal life to deal with, so do i
i am not forever mortal
SHE:
so you don't want to be the general, major, captain, lieutenant, rookie etc etc etc anymore???
ME:
huh?
SHE:
you go to war mah...
ME:
i am the recruit
always the frontline
to die first
SHE:
one person war so have to wear all rank lor
hahahahah
yeah lor...
ME:
.............
now i know why everybody leaves
this place is not worth staying at all
if i chose to leave,
it doesnt mean that im useless
or im not determined enough to stay put and endure
but it is because im finally strong enough
after learning and achieving so much
and earned a doctorate on my own
the recognition, doesnt have to come from somebody else
life is too short for them
I wonder....
ME:i found a new meaning to my phd
i dont have to complete it
because i already knew what i can achieved
SHE:
hahahaha... yes
ME:
and i dont want to achieve it for someone else
SHE:
it's all yours...
ME:
i dont want o help nathalie anymore
i cannot save the world
SHE:
no one can take it from you even if you want to give it away...
ME:
i cannot establish a southeast asia zone
SHE:
you alone cannot...
ME:
i cannot be the best in southeast asia
not because i am not
but because i dont need to prove so hard to be one
i dont want to care what she thinks of my work anymore
not because it doesnt matter
but it matters so much to me, than it matters meaningless to her
i am reluctant to help her solve her puzzle
SHE:
totally agree with you...
ME:
she needs a proper way to do so
i tried to help her,
but without her selfless act, i am a soldier fighting my own war
if she has a personal life to deal with, so do i
i am not forever mortal
SHE:
so you don't want to be the general, major, captain, lieutenant, rookie etc etc etc anymore???
ME:
huh?
SHE:
you go to war mah...
ME:
i am the recruit
always the frontline
to die first
SHE:
one person war so have to wear all rank lor
hahahahah
yeah lor...
ME:
.............
now i know why everybody leaves
this place is not worth staying at all
if i chose to leave,
it doesnt mean that im useless
or im not determined enough to stay put and endure
but it is because im finally strong enough
after learning and achieving so much
and earned a doctorate on my own
the recognition, doesnt have to come from somebody else
life is too short for them
All us us get to meet people like that all our lives. Sometimes we decide to stick with them, for the interest, passion, feelings, appreciation, etc.
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*hugs*